Day 398 on 10 July 14: Living without my Darling Husband

OMG!!!  398 days have passed and the loneliness is harder to bear.  Why do I have to go through life without your loving support?  It's so unfair. Some people said that I should be happy that you've gone to a better place.  I believe so too. Please come to my dreams & kiss me softly on my cheek and tell me where you are. Please explain to me why you had to go. I miss you very much!

All I have left of you now are memories of the happy times we shared which I will needless to say will cherish them forever.  So I will continue on living until the day you come for me and Mikaail and take us away.

I've got our family photo as my phone screen saver - always looking at you.  Wondering how and why did the screw up happened thereby destroyed both Mikaail and my future.